Dominiexcorphobia

Dominiexorphobia - A made up word for those who fear movies like the Exorcist. There may be a real name for it. If you know it put it in the comments. It's was more fun making it up than looking it up. ;-P

I once again have been bit by the inspiring blogging bug. But this thought came to me after I had shutdown my laptop and was getting ready to do the things I've been putting off all day. 

I was 12 years old when I first saw the Exorcist, which was entirely too young. And like people twice my age I was traumized by it. To date, The Exorcist and The Exorcism of Emily Rose are two of the scariest movies I've ever seen. 

I think what scared me about this movie is what scares many others. It's a core fear of being randomly pick for such an evil experience...condition. 

I was the same age that Linda Blair (Reagan) was in the movie, so of course I was sleeping with the lights on for years afterwards. I will admit, even today 50 years later, I don't like sleeping in complete darkness. And its not because of these movies, it's because of my own imagination. 

This wonderful scary imagination of mine, has open a doorway to becoming a Horror Writer. I love horror and I've zoomed in to the elements that scare us the most. For me it's the eeriness and the feeling that stays with you after the credit have rolled. 

On September 7th, 2001, CNN did a story titled: 

Archbishop: Mother Teresa underwent exorcism

http://www.cnn.com/2001/WORLD/asiapcf/south/09/04/mother.theresa.exorcism/index.html

I was completely shocked when I first heard this two decades after this article was published, I was filled with unbelief. So I researched it and Voila, eeriness illuminating from the the computer screen:

He (The Archbishop) said he noticed that while Mother Teresa was calm during the day, at night she appeared "extremely agitated." D'Souza said Mother Teresa would pull off wires and other monitoring equipment stuck to her body.

He said that is when he believed Mother Teresa "might be under the attack of the evil one." He offered to arrange for an exorcism for the elderly nun. She agreed. 

"So I said let's do the prayer of exorcism over her. So I called one of the priests who was a holy man in Calcutta," D'Souza said. "I told him, 'Please say the prayer of exorcism over Mother Teresa.' And he got a shock and said, 'Shall I pray and should I drive out the devil if it's there?'"

"I said, 'Yes, you do.' But he says, 'What will the devil do to me?' I said to him, 'You command the devil to go if he's there. In the name of the church, as archbishop, I command you to go and do it.'"

Com'on, I don't want scariness to be in my News!!! I exclaim and definitely slept with the light on and a happy movie on the TV after reading this. 

My point is this, Fear is a creature all it's own. And as long as it has a strong hold of your soul you ARE possessed. 

Calm down, don't let Dominiexcorphobia have YOU sleeping with the lights on. 

Knowing your fears tells you a lot about who you are or what you have experienced. It wasn't until I watched the Exorcist as a grown woman that I seen Reagan aka Linda Blair as vulnerable little girl who was lonely and playing with a Ouija Board which lead her to hanging out with a Being named Mr. Howdy.

What about Mother Teresa? I can't say either way about her experience, but I think for her to be the saint she was born to be, she had to conquer a opposing fear, which could have manifested. What else are spirits other than energy.

How can you save a soul when you don't understand the dark energy that haunts it. The same with Emily Rose which was a choice for her in the movie. 

Know Thyself. Pinpointing your fear(s) is a very good first step. And I'm not talking about surface fears. I'm talking about those damn near traumatic fears, maybe planted in you as a child. 

I have a cousin who had this Phobia about mushrooms. She would cry and have an anxiety attack if one pop up within her pathway. She somewhat got over it. She doesn't have the anxiety as much as she did. However, there is still is a lingering of discomfort left as a scar on her soul. We all got scars

Fighting Fungophobia (or Mycophobia) …the fear o fmushrooms. Fungophobia is a term coined by William Delisle Hay, the noted British mycologist (a person who studies fungus, including mushrooms), in 1887. He was one of the first to speak about the social or cultural fear of mushrooms that he saw in England

Her Fungophobia was more than a curiosity for me. I had to reflect on my own discomforts of mushrooms. It's not the mushroom itself, it's the fact that it is a Fungus. I don't do well with dirty water, soap scum, mold, mineral deposits and of course fungi. I still struggle with these things today. Scar on the Soul

It took someone else's fear to help me recognize my own fears. Just like the above movies. I'm sure the creators of these movies were both scared and fascinated at the same time. I would be. My best stories are the ones that sprung from a real fear. Be it ghost, demons, devils or shadows in the darkness.

We are all mirror images of each other, believe it or not. It may be a Funhouse Mirror image but an image just the same. 

We need to appreciate and learn from ALL our negative emotions and actions, be it Fear, hate, disgust, lying and so on. These are key indicators to your own psyche. 

"What you don't like in others is really what you don't like in yourself"

In a 1995 movie called, "Just Cause", Sean Connery (with his fine ass) played a Lawyer, turned Law Professor. It's a good movie. A little underrated, but still a hidden gem Crime Drama. He was interviewing a serial killer as part of his case and the criminal played by Ed Harris, with the sharp blue eyes, asked him three question, which our hero, Dr. Paul Armstrong (Connery) lied on each question. After being called out by Blair Sullivan (Harris), Dr. Armstrong said a line that will always stayed with me, "Doesn't my lies tell you as much as about me as my truths" (I'm paraphrasing). Sullivan than ask if Armstrong was a killer too. 

https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0113501/

Obviously Harris recognized a similar intelligence in his Protagonist Armstrong. Excellent job by the writers, John Katzenbach (novel) and Jeb Stuart (screenplay). They were able to capture the human experience throughout that entire movie.

My point here is don't self punish or scrutinize yourself over your own negative emotions and actions. Your sins are an indicator of a Cognitive Dissonance within your soul. A misalignment of self. I'll write more on that topic at a later date. Cognitive Dissonance and Sin deserve there own Blog.

Why was I runny from the Devil? Why does The Exorcist and the Exorcism of Emily Rose bother me so much? Because I was afraid of God. How can my soul feel safe if my Protector of such evil can be ten times worse? How could I be forgiven my this Supreme Deity if I felt I wasn't worthy of forgiveness? Why does it even matter? 

It doesn't matter. All those things are Religious Demons, caused by an environment of Suffering is Holy and we are all born of sin. "A wretch like me." Sounds familiar?  

The Energy of Love needs no worshiping or ritual. The Divine It, wants you to create and live so It can experience Itself through you. And how can you do that if you are bogged down by fears. How can you pull out all your hidden powers if you are already defeated?

Fears are an aggressive cancer of the soul that can kill you by manifesting in phobia, illness and depression. It multiplies very easily. Before long you are afraid of the dark, mushrooms, scums, spiders and anything/everything else. But if you read your soul and narrow in to your greatest fear it will help you overcome that and become the greater self you were meant to be. Fear is an Energy with it's own frequency. Change your Channel. 

So did this Blog scare you (BOO!) LOL if so do you have a fear of the things that go bump in the night, or the fear of being dominated by an unseen force. Maybe you have to find your place with God, be it the Universe, A Divine Energy or Just good old fashion Pure Love. 

“Simeon and Levi are brothers;

Instruments of [a]cruelty are in their dwelling place.
6 Let not my soul enter their council;
Let not my honor be united to their assembly;
For in their anger they slew a man,
And in their self-will they [b]hamstrung an ox.
7 Cursed be their anger, for it is fierce;
And their wrath, for it is cruel!
I will divide them in Jacob
And scatter them in Israel. ---Genesis 49:5-7

This scripture speaks about the tribe of the Hebrew Priest (Levi). And it's Spot on. Jacob aka Israel, as well as his son Joseph were directly connected to God, per the story. They were prophets actually. Add the word Religious after the word "Their" and you will have a perfect match. As sad as it may be, there is much bloodshed between the pages of many Fundamental Religious text. They are a cradle of my wrath. And that Wrath nurses them into monsters, doing things in the name of God that should NEVER be done. 

Bottomline, "The Kingdom of God is within you". Look at your internal PERCEIVED enemies to find that piece of Heaven that goes with you wherever you go,  if you CHOOSE to select it over Hell.